Baby crying.

That is what I hear right now. And it is really really hard to sit down hear and listen to it when I just want to walk upstairs to hold and rock my little monkey to sleep.

All of a sudden our little easy-to-bed little girl has decided to protest sleepy time. I am fairly regimented and I have a great schedule for her during the day so by nap time she is exhausted and melts into her mattress after eating. But nighttime. Oh nighttime.

I feed her while we rock together in the glider and she pulls at her hair/ears/blanket while her eyelids grow heavy. She is half asleep when I lay her down and this WAS when she would grab her blanket and drift off to sleep. Not now. As I lay her down she is cool for about 5 minutes and then all hell breaks loose in her room.

Screaming. Wide awake. Sitting up (new trick). This then escalates to hysterical yelps combined with screaming and kicking the end of the crib. I listen as long as I physically can and then I send my husband in to comfort her, lay her back down, hand her the blanket and walk out.

That usually pisses her off more- probably because she sees one of us and that makes her want us to get her out of the crib reeeeeally badly- but we hold strong. And, now, about 15 minutes after the crying has started, I only hear silence (well that and my husband's continous cough that is pretty much like nails on a chalkboard).

Hearing her cry is painful. I swear. Having to listen to your child cry is terrible. But both me and Dan know if we go in there and pick her up every night and rock her to sleep that our nighttime is going to progressively get worse until we are literally camping out in her room until she is 18.