I am able to post this with my one good finger.

That is the only part of me that is feeling healthy. One good finger. The rest of me feels like it is slowly dying...a death of severe morning sickness.

Right now I am wondering how I will be able to make it another 8-10 weeks feeling like this. Dan just made the food we do not speak of when I am dealing with morning sickness (chicken) and the smell of it, even while I am upstairs in the bedroom, is making me want to do you-know-what in the toilet/sink/waste basket. Oh god, I need to change the subject, I am getting so grossed out.

I have stopped most communication with the outside world. I sit at home every day and hope that 6:15p comes soon so Dan can help me. Poor Melrose is so bored. I try to take her for a walk and sit outside with her, but I can tell she is wondering, "Uhh, what the hell are we doing sitting at home every day? This sucks!!!"

The medication I am on only helps a tiny bit. Enough that I can mildly function and eat some food, but not enough. I feel like I have the stomach flu about 70% of the day. For a few hours I will feel pretty good, which I am more then thankful of (I never had that when I was pregnant with Melrose). I feel craptastical in the morning and even worse at night. Eating helps and then it makes me feel sick. Drinking fluids helps, but then it also makes me feel sick. Laying around doesn't help, but getting up and moving around makes me sick.

This little baby is feeding off of me and trying to kill me, I swear. Melrose was the same way and worse in many respects. I think I have a pregnancy defect or something. It is NOT ok to be THIS sick when you are pregnant. And that is final.