This seriously sucks.

I am a bed ridden, muscle relaxer popping, babyless waste of space.

This neck thing has been elevated to ridiculous proportions and I am in so much pain I can hardly even begin to describe it in words. I've had to call off of work all week and enlisted my dad's help in taking care of the baby. I cannot lift, feed or hold her without terrible pain shooting through my body.

Like I said last night to Dan, I rather go through child birth 32304834 more times to avoid feeling this pain.

Right now I have a hot water pad on my neck and am slowly creeping away from a muscle relaxer delusional state. That means I need to pop another in my mouth for some relief.

Thank god I have the option to give Melrose formula otherwise I would really be screwed. I physically couldn't breastfeed her in this state.